the need to forget

Alright, I realize that the bulk of my last few blogs have been a little too directed at my frustrations with boys. I guess that topic just bothers me more than other topics generally do (mostly because I suck at it so much). But I really need to just let go and start over because I keep torturing myself by putting myself in the same situations over and over again. Am I really that stupid (I'll just answer that one for you...YES!). And I keep telling myself over and over that I'm going to change and that things are going to be different, but I always fall back into old habits. I just never learn. If I'm going to maintain what little sanity I have, I really need to though. Wish me luck (and just slap me next time you see me ok).

realizations

It's funny because the last few weeks I've been keenly aware of how much I love my research, well, my linguistic research. I really love studying language acquisition and linguistics and cognition; I know I'm doing the right thing and going in the right direction. I feel like I've really found my passion, what I want to do the rest of my life. I'm really grateful for this realization, especially because it took me so long to get to this point. I'm pretty sure I've been through at least 5 or 6 majors/combinations of majors, but I'm finally set. And I love it. It's just in other areas of life that there's still something to be desired.

college student what?

Last weekend was so theraputic; this weekend wasn't too bad either. I've been actually going out and doing fun (sometimes juvenile) things and it's been so good for me. Even though I know I'm too serious most of the time, it's really not until I chill-out for a little while that I realize how high-strung I actually am. But last weekend B and I got all dolled up for this faux-mal that our ward had (like an opposite formal) and then had fort night (don't worry the giant fort is still constructed in our living room and will remain there for quite some time). And then this weekend I went to the Jazz game and to the Draper Temple open house. It was just nice. And today I actually got to sleep in because it was stake conference (yeah for sleep!). Sometimes it's just nice to remember that life is not just a race to get ahead and to accomplish, but that life really needs to be lived every day. New goal.